Writing or Something Like It

Hi Silly

2009-09-10T20:18:00.001-07:00

I woke up today,
I saw your face,
In a glass tube filled with wires,
You made me smile first thing.

Hi Silly,
I miss you.
Where have you been,
Where did you go?

Hey Silly,
I love you.
Why haven’t you call,
Are you sick of me already?

Ouh Silly,
I know you’re busy,
I know things are hectic nowadays,
I’ll always be with you,
I’m always here for you.

No Silly,
I don’t love you that way,
You know how we are,
I just miss you a lot.

Bye Silly,
I hope to see you again soon,
I wish for the time between us could fly by,
Shall we meet again sometime,
I would just take you for selfish self.
I miss you dear…

Love,
-ieja-

Words

2009-07-10T11:41:00.000-07:00

Cheap words are so damn easy to utter,
So freaking easy to say,
Such hypocrites.
Such fraud.
Those words you said,
Didn’t you yourself do it too?
Wasn’t it you who wanted them?
Are they not YOUR friends?
Stop bickering about them.
Stop spilling bad fucks about them.
They are what you are too.
They are those who helped mould you.
What are these words for?
Emotions?
Or just words to fill the time?
Stupid!
Enough!
Stupid Hypocrites!

Dad

2009-06-21T00:06:00.001-07:00

Never had you ever said,
“I’m too tired”,
Never that you ever groan,
“I’m not well, go away”.

Never had you asked anything,
Never had you even screamed at me,
Not once you hit me,
Not once you beat us.

Never had I told you this,
Not once had I ever say,
“I love you, dad”.

- this might not be true to all fathers, but it's true for mine...
- happy father's day to all father..

R.I.P

2009-06-10T02:21:00.001-07:00

Silence.
Cold.
Sick.
Pain.
Is all I knew.

Warmth.
Warmness.
Happy.
Love.
Was what you thought me.

Lost.
Now that you are gone.
Alone.
Now that you have left.
Sad.
But I hope you are at peace.

Tall, Dark & Angry

2009-06-07T00:52:00.000-07:00

Kept thinking of what mom said,
“Do not go out of state”,
Kept smiling at dad’s wisdom thought,
“Listen to your brain, think with your heart”.

Time had passed,
For the thought of how to fit in,
Time has flew,
For the crown to be prom queen.

Hello Mr. Tall, Dark and Handsome,
How did you melt the heart of this ice princess?
How did you break the wall of stone surrounding me?
Too short of a time had passed when you went away,
Too little of a time we have spent had created the memories,
Why did you not tell me?
Why do you have to leave?
Why do you have to change me?
Why did you have to be so kind to me, when it was you that needed me?

Then came Mr. Blond Hair, Blue Eyes,
I told you to wait,
I told you to stay back,
Let me heal on my own,
Let me drown in this feeling of alone,
He had told you ,
“You can’t mend this broken China”,
Why do you have to open the bleeding wound?
Why can’t you just leave me alone?

Years later, I kept being pulled by the Tall, Dark Brooder,
Everything about you brings back the memories,
Every inch of you smell like strawberries,
Unlike the rest,
You don’t care if you’re a mess,
Unlike the rest,
You said, “the hell with the test!”.

Mr. Tall, Dark and Angry,
You showed me how to be merry,
You are not alone, silly!

Smiles

2009-05-31T11:14:00.000-07:00

Smiles

A hundred miles apart makes me want you more,
A million smiles I missed make me want to see more,
But when your face right in front of mine no words my mouth can utter,
No feelings my emotion can deliver.

Love

2009-05-24T09:03:00.000-07:00

Love is a weird thing,
Love is a funny thing,
Love is what brought human together,
Love is the cause of war.

The word of love is always uttered,
The word of love is at the tips of the lips,
The word of love now has no meaning,
The word of love is nothing but a word.

The feeling of love is what every soul crave,
The feeling of love is what every heart wants,
The feeling of love is what made human survive,
The feeling of love is what make human kill.

What is love?
Why does it complicate one’s life?
Why must love control a human’s emotion?
What make love so powerful toward a human?

Love is merely a feeling,
Love is merely a word,
Love is merely a game that we play together,
Well,
Love is LOVE.

-ieja-

Yet Another Sleepless Night

2009-05-21T23:56:00.001-07:00

Yet Another Sleepless Night
Yet another sleepless night,
The soft ticks of the clock,
Silent wind of the night,
Deafen me.

Again and again I wreak my brain,
Again and again all I have is the same,
Yet it never bore me,
Yet it never fail to amuse me.

Yet another sleepless night,
I stare at the nothingness of the paper yet again,
I stood still on my chair, frozen,
My lids, they just would not close.

So many things in my mind,
Yet so little to say,
As much thing I have thought about,
None is yet to prove useful.

Oh silent night,
This feeling is killing me,
The softness is weakening me,
The nothingness is crowding me.

Oh silent night,
Tell me a story,
Sing me a lullaby,
Please, put me to sleep.

-a little something I came up with while I could not sleep... a little incoherent I know... :)

Heaven and Hell

2009-05-13T11:43:00.000-07:00

Slowly the ladder to heavens I climbed,
All I find is a tree of wrath,
All I see is a fruit of anger,
All I discover is a bush of jealousy,
All I wanted was a hope for destiny

Stiffly I followed the path to hell,
All I saw was a great portrait of forgiveness,
All I got was a feel of togetherness,
All I found was the trail to happiness, but
All I expected was the beast of damnation

I smiled at myself, funny
I laughed at myself, amused,
I frowned at the thought of what heaven was,
I was at ease with the image of what hell was.

Was my heaven really heaven?
Was the hell I saw really hell?
Was the hell actually heaven?
Was the heaven was in fact hell?

It was then; I realized I had it upside down,
It was then; I gave it another chance,
All it needed was someone to show me around,
All it needed was a chance to prance.

Yet, I am still searching,
Yet, I am still looking,
Since he who showed me keep on disappearing,
Since he who showed me are no longer living.

Funny Feeling

2009-05-13T11:25:00.000-07:00

Funny that I feel this way again,
Funny that I fell in this place again and again,
Funny that it happens to me over and over again,
Funny that I never learn to get over the pain.

- i could not sleep last night and this came out of my brains...

ieja

A Person of No Importance

2009-05-07T08:34:00.000-07:00

When all others would not work,
All I do is cry.
When all others ignore me,
All I do is cry.
My tears screamed to be let in.
My tears screamed to be kept.
Yet all of it is wasted.
Yet all of it is washed away.
My brains screamed to be free,
My hands beseeched to be with the keys.
Yet my heart is reluctant to just let them win,
My heart is to in shambles to have a lovely thought to put on papers,
My heart is to broken in its own way to let all others win,
Yet my heart wants nothing more than love.
Oh dear friend, can’t you spare me a tiny bit of your time?
Oh dear lover, can’t you gave me a tiny piece of your heart?
O dear love, what can I do to get you?
O dear life, who am I to ask these questions?
No body. No one.
A person of no importance!

Human

2009-05-07T00:58:00.000-07:00

Shall I whisper to you those sweet words?
Shall I touch you with these course hands of mine?
Shall you accept me for what I am?
Shall you dream your sweet dreams and still think of me?
Or Shall you just pretend that I have never existed in your life?
Why these questions you asked.
Why these tone?
Why not! Tell me WHY not!
You left me for the loneness of the early morning,
You left me for the loneness of the nothingness.
You cared for me like I was a rug,
You loved me as if I was a cat.
Tell me what am I to you?
Tell me am I still human?
Tell me am I still a person?
Tell me that you still see me as I am.

- a little rambling that i feel like shouting out -

Pride

2009-05-06T09:28:00.000-07:00

You’re the guy who escapes my vision
Yet you are the guy of my mission.
You stole my heart but you don’t even know it,
You took it away but you have never even wanted it.
Why I cried, why I demanded,
Why would you have the answer, you never even minded.
Oh love why did you come in my life,
Oh love look what you did to my life.
You took away my sanity as you took away my heart.
Even that, you can never take away my pride…

:) a little something I came up with at midnight after Nasi Lemak... A spur of the moment thing again... Arghh... my head hurts again... i need aspirin... :(

~Friendship~

2009-04-02T11:09:00.001-07:00

Hath thee seen the lightness of love?
Hath thee seen the heaviness of friendship?
Shall thou be blessed with the gift of love?
Shall thou be blessed with the hope of friendship?

Shan’t love trumps over friendship?
Shan’t love concur all?
Love merely are for a lifetime,
Love merely keeps the soul satisfied,
No love can ever match the wholesome of a friendship,
No love can heal a broken heart.

~Lover~

2009-04-01T19:35:00.000-07:00

Shall I not see the day light again,
My heart would not falter in the hands of coldness,
Shall I not see the world again,
My mind would not wither in the hands of obscurity,
Shall I not hear the sound of music again,
My ears yearn not other sound than of your voice,
Shall I not have any food to my mouth,
My stomach would devour of its remains,
Shall I not see thy beauty again,
My soul would wither in the stillness of silence.

Ode to Thee

2009-04-01T12:27:00.001-07:00

How shall I live by thee are the air that I breathe,
How shall I see by I only live to see the sight of thee,
Shall my heart ache, as it only craves thee as my companion,
Shall I be place in the coldness, stillness of the air as thee took the warmth away.

O my lord,

Shall I kill for thee,
Shall I withered without thee,
As for what time shall I wait for thee?
Alas I shall die without thee.